I am not cursed. I was doing it to myself and didn’t even see it. I say that as someone who has burned his own life down more than once and rebuilt it from the ashes with bloody hands and sleepless nights.
I’m 30 years old, and I’ve lived two very different lives: from throwing wild parties — running Party Animal Entertainment, owning a slice of a nightclub, living for nights I barely remembered and attention that never lasted — to building multi-agent AI systems, cyber defense frameworks, and writing about harmonic metaphysics.
Subject Profile
- NAME JARYD PAQUETTE
- AGE 30
- STATUS ACTIVE REBUILD
- CLEARANCE LEVEL 5
Evidence Log: The Chaos
Trial By Fire
The Hack
Before the awakening, there was the crash. I was building a $100k+ MRR agency. I was flying high until I got hacked, and everything went downhill fast. Addiction became severe after my digital life was dismantled and no one believed me.
I went from running a business to buying thousands of dollars of drugs — sometimes in a single day — just to stay awake. Not to party, but to master the skill of hacking to defend the digital assets I fought so hard to build. It was a test. The universe was putting me into refinement.
I went from running a business to buying thousands of dollars of drugs — sometimes in a single day — just to stay awake. Not to party, but to master the skill of hacking to defend the digital assets I fought so hard to build. It was a test. The universe was putting me into refinement.
// TECHNICAL INTERCEPT
"I built zero-human-intervention intrusion Light GBM Models — basically, an AI brain with a 100-branch decision tree capable of catching hackers faster than any human ever could."
Tried reaching out to FBI directors... no one took me seriously. Jokes on them. I gained new skills and reclaimed my ownership. Put a problem in front of me. I will solve it.
From Ashes to Awakening
Years ago, David Goggins cracked something open in me. His entire existence proved that a human being can choose to suffer on purpose and transform. From there I dove into Hermeticism, Rosicrucian echoes, Stoicism. I studied how reality behaves like a song.
That’s where sigil-003 came from — a blueprint. If reality is a song, then sigil-003 is the tuning fork.
But here’s the hurt: I was screwing myself over by the limits of what I was willing to be aware of. I told myself I was "meant for more" while replaying the same destructive loops.
System Audit: Layer 1 vs Layer 2
Layer 01 (Surface)
The narrative I’m consciously aware of. "I am building. I am trying."
Layer 02 (Core)
The script in the nervous system. "I am broken. I am unworthy."
Brutal Choices
- 01Getting up when my body said 'no'.
- 02Shipping work instead of infinite tinkering.
- 03Owning my mistakes outright.
- 04Choosing boredom over chaos.
- 05Choosing discipline over dopamine.
The Only One
Who Knew
"He was the strong man with his own version of it. He knew my life fully and had full faith. I lost him 3 years ago."
He still watches from afar. I know that. In the quiet moments, when the noise fades, I align myself with the standard he set.
The Pain of Being Awake
Why does it hurt more now? Because I’m feeling all of it. This pain isn’t weakness; it’s withdrawal. I walk 44 minutes to the gym and 44 minutes back because I have no car. My legs are dead, my mind is on fire.
Friction Before Ignition
WHO I AM
Disruptor of Illusions
Shattering the lies society feeds us.
Chain-Breaker
Ending generational curses and trauma loops.
Forged in Chaos
Tempered like steel in the fires of hell.
Carrying Thunder
A storm of truth, passion, and pain.
Defined by Action
I am what I do when no one is watching.
The Tuning Fork
My reality, my frequency, my hands.
"I know the world isn’t ready for the man I’m becoming."
Too bad. I’m not asking permission.